Let’s start with the good news first: E took her first steps! It was just a few–twice–and it hasn’t happened again in the past four days, but it was refreshing to see that she’s gained enough confidence to try to do it on her own. Now she walks simply “holding” my pointer finger, and by “holding” I mean barely touching and not realizing that she’s actually walking on her own and I’m not doing a thing to help her.
The not-so-good news: we had a major allergy scare the other night. B was working a bit late so E and I had a makeshift breakfast for dinner: cashew butter toast with a side of hashbrowns. It was nothing E hasn’t eaten before and there should have been zilch to worry about. Halfway through the meal, though, a dark red rash spread across E’s face in a matter of seconds. Hives began to pop up everywhere and then the same thing happened to her hands, and then her collarbone. My first thought was Oh shit, somehow a peanut was ground into the batch of cashew butter. My heart began racing and my whole body was tingling, and in the midst of a full-blown anxiety attack I completely shut down for half a minute as I tried to determine my next step. I finally came to my senses enough to give her some Benadryl, and then I watched closely for any difficulty breathing.
Half an hour later, I finally began to calm down. We were in the clear. The Benadryl had started to work its magic and E was doing just fine. Even still, I watched the monitor like a hawk after I put her to bed. Just to be sure.
Until recently, I had (stupidly) assumed food allergy scares would be few and far between. We avoid purchasing any food that’s processed on the same equipment as milk or eggs. We avoid purchasing any food that’s processed in the same facility as peanuts. Even though the cashew butter label reads “May contain almonds” and does not have a warning about peanuts, I was utterly terrified E might have accidentally ingested a peanut via her cashew butter. Although her recent reaction wasn’t pretty, it wasn’t because of her cashew butter. She’s had it since without so much as a single hive appearing on her body. So how do allergy moms curb their anxiety?
I’ll circle back and answer that question later. Six months, maybe. A year, maybe. Over time, I have to learn. I have to find a way to handle allergy scares without having a paralyzing anxiety attack.
Dramatic post aside, we’ve been finding so many things for E to eat. Newest favorites: vegan blueberry waffles, Triscuits (they must feel good on those gums), whole peeled apples, frozen peas, Larabars, raspberry sorbet, and banana bread. This girl LOVES her food!